Needed a rant...

Some of my family and friends need a wake up call. They either think I'm naïve or just incredibly stupid.

I have been preparing for this child for more than 9 months, I have essentially been pregnant now for nearly 15 months if you add up my loss/recovery from my D&C. I have felt a pain worse than most people can even imagine yet some people think that it's ok to do this:

You're in a public place, perhaps a restaurant or shopping. You hear a small child crying or a young toddler throwing a fit. The know-it-all friend/family member looks at you and snidely points out, "That is your future." (in an "it sucks to be you" kind of way)

Thanks for the observation, captain obvious! I had no idea that kids cry in public. In fact, I've gone my entire life without ever hearing a child cry or throw a tantrum. Thanks for pointing out that fact that my child will be hard to raise because I had no idea. No really, thanks for being soooo supportive of my pregnancy and my journey to completely forget the fact that after I had my loss hearing those tantrums actually made me ache for the loss of my child because I KNOW that's evidence of parenthood. I know more than you think.

You know what's not helpful? Telling me that the newborn phase is the worst. Pointing out the fact that kids cry.

I am literally counting down the days until my baby is born and you think THAT is what I should be hearing?

FUCK YOU.

No seriously, fuck you for thinking that I have no idea that parenthood is hard. Fuck you for your lack of faith in my observation skills.

Really, if anything, I need positivity right now. What do you think your words are trying to do? Convince me to not have children? Not that your words would change my mind, but isn't it a little late for that?

Do you not realize that if things had gone the way that I thought they were going to go, I would have a 7 month old by now? Are you trying to make me feel like that loss was somehow a blessing because at least I wouldn't have to deal with a crying child?

I just don't get it. Why do you say these things? What could you possibly have to gain from these little clichés? I'm tired of grinning and pretending that you're funny. You're not funny. You're a douche.